What happens when you are not fully committed to a much needed transformation?
I’ll start by saying: I have a long history with alcohol abuse, starting with my Grandfather, Father and eventually Myself. My alcohol addiction has resulted in two DUIs, broken relationships, financial chaos and large doses of guilt and shame. After much prodding from my family and them threatening not to bail me out of any more messes (they were emotionally drained) I finally made the decision to check into a rehab facility. I was able to successfully remove alcohol from my life. Problem solved. WRONG! There was still much more inner work for me to do and another level of commitment was required of me. I was not ready.
In the meantime other addictions came to the forefront like marijuana and sexual addiction since alcohol was no longer a major player. These addictions started creating serious havoc in my life -- inappropriate and self-indulgent behavior. This put a strain on my relationship. At this point in my life I wanted to start a family. I self-sabotaged myself at every turn. My relationship ended and I lost control. Unfortunately I had to experience an embarrassing moment to wake me up and realize enough is enough. This started with me no longer allowing a false sense of self-hatred to hijack my higher purpose and destiny.
My new level of commitment started with me learning how to love and accept myself; along with being open and willing to change my mindset. Hey it sounds cheesy, but it's true. I want to thank you for listening. Share your story, I would love to hear it.
Last word: We are not meant to do this journey alone. I am thankful and grateful for the people in my life (my personal dream team) I encourage you to build your own dream team whether it’s a life coach, spiritual teacher, and or therapist. Books can also be a great inspiration for change. Napoleon Hill’s book was a great resource for me. I will keep you updated on my progress. Here’s to personal evolution!!!
African Proverb. “How do you eat an elephant? Bit by bit”